Battling Depression

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I couldn't remember i slept good these past days waking up in the middle of the night and slept like 3 hrs . Chatted with Joji earlier she took 2 tabs Valium lastnight i cant blame her i know what shes going through. I'm battling depression but dont wanna take anti anxiety and anti depressants. I tried to stay away from negativism. I like to go to work so i can keep my mind busy. I dreaded the moment to come home alone and then everything will sink in. Tequila shots @ bed time aint helping either., Its 2:44 am and still wide awake. How a simple " goodnight" before will make u go to sleep peacefully.

gay love :)

so my gay friend Nory was beaten to death by his lover coz he told him he will be working  (night shift)but his bf caught him in club DOCE with other guys.Monday normal greetings at work  instead of " how was ur weekend" ? " Did ur bf beat u up again?"  :))

Friends

She knows me better than anyone in this planet. What makes me happy, who makes me happy, fave food We share the same values, we both luv swimsuits .  Sweet and can be a real bitch .And she hates koreans too :)).
Fave thing to do with her is eating buko salad at ayala after work.

Charlotte shes cool and crazy , she cant swim :) but she likes to jet ski . Shes 2 mos pregnant im gonna be a ninang again soon :). I luv her!

Nestor and Joarc theyre my fave third sex people . Nestor is a spoiled brat . They both like coffee,smoker and  party! Joarc on the other hand Joarc has bf ( actually countless ) !

JP and Neil theyre my fave gay couple :) They've been together for like 8 yrs now. :) I cant even  get a bf and these 2 their relationship is awesome. Neil will pick  up Jp afterwork, livin in together i wish im gay !:))..

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 ( Fave passage in the bible)

To every thing there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace.

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" even under that tough girl exterior you put up...you're just a sweet girl who wants to be loved."  Darryl

"I'll drink..always subdues the pain until the next day" Brandon

About me

I think of me as  an unselfish individual. Going to the beach makes me happy, seeing my loved ones happy makes me happy . My parents they mean the world to me . Lola passed away last year i still think of her and miss her :(.  I'm very independent, strong willed at times. I luv to eat chocolates,anything grilled and vegies salad.. Im a simple person  i hate conceited people  feed me adobong kangkong and will luv u forever. I luv nature , . I'm generous to family and friends. Faithful to my partner .Longest relationship was 4 yrs. Was engaged once but ddnt work out. I believe in loyalty and respect in a relationship. I will give you all my love, give you the best sex, scratch your back the whole night, cook for u , be ur num 1 fan. I believe in compromising. Im very forgiving but im not stupid i wont let anyone abuse my trust. I wanna settle down   one day. Have a family and work as RN. Wanna enroll in culinary class, be a fire dancer for one night.