Battling Depression

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I couldn't remember i slept good these past days waking up in the middle of the night and slept like 3 hrs . Chatted with Joji earlier she took 2 tabs Valium lastnight i cant blame her i know what shes going through. I'm battling depression but dont wanna take anti anxiety and anti depressants. I tried to stay away from negativism. I like to go to work so i can keep my mind busy. I dreaded the moment to come home alone and then everything will sink in. Tequila shots @ bed time aint helping either., Its 2:44 am and still wide awake. How a simple " goodnight" before will make u go to sleep peacefully.